Name:Annette Chi Yan Birthday:3/25/1987 Gender:Female
Interests:I'm interested in:
1- seeking the way of life through God
2- MUSIC - Shung kei Shung tak, David Tao, Eric Kwok, Swing, CHoosE, Chet Lam, Chris Tomlin, grasshoppers, Hocc..etc..
3- PLAYING- guitar, horn, keyboard.. Expertise:procrastinating.. that's what this site is for...
I am studying for my abnormal psyc midterm right now, and i found out I'm more abnormal than I thought =.=... Here are the notes that I took during class:
Under the slide "defining stress": Big muscles - things can't eat you. It is good.
Under Schizophrenia: Book – psychology….. sandwich Schizophrenic people are not always violent
--- On another note, this song has been keeping me sane:
"I suppose that since most of our hurts come through relationships, so will our healing, and I know that grace rarely makes sense for those looking in from the outside." - WM. Paul Young, The Shack
"You are a bigger sinner than you could ever imagine..." I was shocked at how evil I can be as I try to come up with a way to deal with my hurts and desires in my heart. I realized I could totally become that annoying evil-minded girl who constantly tries to mess with the beautiful main character in those korean drama if I really want to. I could also throw myself into stuff that could numb these desires in the short run. But in the end, I know that these choices would not make me happy and completely satisfied.
Sometimes I laugh at myself for mulling over such trivial matters compared to the greatness of my Savior. Why is it so hard to surrender our hearts completely to the One who's always been loving and caring for us? I saw all those times when you told me to turn to you, when you left me alone in an airport for 4 hours with nothing else but my Bible, but my eyes were covered by my sin and my pains. I want to stop looking at myself and look at your greatness. I want to be joyful and thankful instead of being stressed and anxious. I want some of that long-lost joy I used to have. I want to appear to others as a strong and mature woman of Christ who has everything figured out, yet I'm writing this xanga entry. My self-righteous prideful side wants to smack myself on the head and throw out Bible verses and tell myself to repent.
I hate being deceived, because that makes me feel underestimated (that I would not find out about the truth), and i always know, always. My interpretation of the quote at the beginning is that hurts come from relationships with people, but healing comes from relationship with God and relationships with others that is granted by God. But even through our hurting, God covers us with so much grace. Only if I could see all of it...
Ironic enough, my promise ring that I have lost for the whole semester appeared as I unpack from my trip to San Diego. This time I don't want to put it down again.
"You are a bigger sinner than you could ever imagine, but God's love for you is far greater than you could ever imagine."
A. Theme of finals for this semester: All-nighters. Root of the problem: Procrastination. Like now.
B. I realize I don't hate going home as much as I thought. I just dread the travelling part. I hate the loud noise on flights. Maybe it's the loneliness of traveling by myself too? I'm just waiting for THE right person I can travel with, because that means a lot.
C. Noir Extreme 70% Cocoa cookies, I'm gonna remember you.
D. Chef Michael Symon said the following in a Dinner Impossible episode - "I use kosher salt to cook, sea salt to add flavor, and ionized salt to sprinkle on my driveway." - it made me laugh, for some reason.
E. I've been trying to figure out who my favorite chef/cook in Food Network is. I used to rank it this way: 1. Ina Garten (learned culinary arts through self-study) 2. Bobby Flay (FCI) 3. Michael Symon (CIA) but Symon has been climbing up my list recently. And my love for Giada grew a lot, too. I also realized Rachael Ray is actually not that bad. I think she's just a really flavor-oriented, mom-style kind of cook. But Jamie Oliver is still my all-time favorite. Too bad he's not on food network. Oh, and I forgot to mention Alton Brown... and Guy Fieri ...
